Sick Day

I am sick right now.  I subbed for kindergarten last week and a couple of the kids were sneezing and coughing all over me, so I figured it was just a matter of time before it caught up to me.  I had yesterday off, obviously, since schools were closed for election day.  But with both my kids home, mama didn't get much rest!

In addition to the kids being home, the dishes and laundry were piled up and had to be done.  I had already scheduled myself to work tomorrow last week, so today I am declaring a sick day.  I have my Bible study, a book, my phone, and a glass of water beside my chair and I don't plan to get up any time soon.  I have to go to the grocery store today at some point, but hopefully my Dayquil will kick in soon and I will have a little more energy to get out of the house.

The Dayquil I have is the soft gel pills. They are a bit disappointing. I wish I had the liquid Dayquil. I do have the liquid Nyquil and it is like liquid gold running down my searing throat!  Josh doesn't like the taste of the liquid and prefers the pills. I think it is just not the same. When I take the Nyquil, it instantly makes me feel like it is doing something. Not so with the pills. Josh jokes that I just like it because of the alcohol content, but I am quick to remind him that the pills have the same formula inside, you just don't feel it going down.

One benefit of my being sick is that I have been getting more sleep (thanks in part to my trusty Nyquil and the time change both coinciding on the same weekend). I went to bed at 9:45 Sunday evening. I cannot remember the last time I was in bed before 10 p.m.. It was probably the last time I was sick.

I really don't have time to take a sick day. I have not made any new progress on the walls.  My "to do" list is as long as ever. But my body has told me that I need to take a rest. I think I am going to take a mental rest too. There is so much to think about. So much to cause dismay. But I am going to resolve to trust the Lord.

Ann Voskamp posted this yesterday and it reminds me to let God speak peace to my heart:
"There is an unwavering peace today...when an uncertain tomorrow...is trusted to an unchanging God."

I look back throughout history - the world's history and my own. I know there have been times that I have been dismayed in the past and thought that it surely was the end of life as I knew it. But life moved on, sometimes just mercifully with the passing of time that healed old wounds or reduced the impact of the blow by the distance of time and sometimes with the brilliant realization that something had to die or be torn away to make room for new beginnings.  But God has always been the same. 

People in the Bible felt dismayed, centuries ago, but life continued on.  David was dismayed many times.  We see his dismay pop up many times in the Psalms.  Psalm 27 is one of those.  But at the end of the Psalm he says, "I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."  So today I am going to do my best to wait for the Lord, though patiently waiting has never came easy to me. But I want to see goodness in the land of the living, even when everything around me makes me feel anxious and uncertain.