Days like today...

There are days like today where I know that I am completely full of myself and so distracted by unimportant things and so persuaded by my own sense of wisdom or justice, that I have lost my way even when I thought I had never left it. I wish that I didn't have to come to that realization through hard circumstances, not always my own.  My heart is heavy and I feel like I have to do something about it.  But there is nothing I can do about a situation that even now is bringing tears to my eyes, a pain in my chest and the urge to stifle an angry scream.  To think that I was just yesterday complaining about the snow and my kids makes me sick to my stomach.  How can I be so selfish?  How can I be so foolish?  What gives me the right to think that I can achieve protection from hardship when others suffer far worse things than me?  How can I talk about myself when others need to be heard?  What am I missing out on by spending so much time feeling frustrated with my own downfalls?  Who is being neglected when I am focusing my thoughts on self-preservation?  I have so much yet to learn and so far yet to go, and I have to have that lesson taught to me on a regular basis.  Heaven forbid I ever stop getting that opportunity.