I need to count my blessings

The rain doesn't usually get to me, but today it has made me especially blue.  I think it is because I keep feeling hopeful that Spring temperatures are here to stay and then they go away again.  This has been one back and forth Spring! 
Josh and I had our 16th wedding anniversary last Friday.  Josh had a business trip to Miami, Florida, to go to and so I had decided to go with him, which was completely out of character for me.  A trip to Florida for just the price of an airline ticket and a few meals didn't sound like a bad way to celebrate our anniversary, even if Josh would have been gone most of the day at meetings.  But last week, I started making the arrangements to go - which entailed leaving the children and their crazy school and sports schedules for others to handle - and I started to feel that I shouldn't have made plans to go.
But, due to the proposed government shut down, the conference Josh was attending was canceled and so, therefore, we no longer are going to Florida.  At first, I was completely relieved and just thankful that I didn't have to prepare to go on the trip after all. 
Today would have been the day we would have left.  We would be in Florida right now as I type this.  And now, I do feel a bit sad that it was canceled.  I know that it is easier this way and my reason tells me that I am being ridiculous in many ways.  But, man, this cold, dreary weather is making me just want to have a good cry right now.  I think it is an especially big bummer because Josh and I didn't have any back-up plan, so our anniversary went by fairly unnoticed.  We had a quiet lunch together last Friday on his lunch break and we got each other a small gift, but when you are expecting to do something completely out of the ordinary, the ordinary seems...pretty ordinary.
I have mentioned before on this blog that Josh and I aren't good at taking trips.  We barely ever vacation and when we do, it is very minimal.  But now as I am preparing to go get Elias from the bus, then get Bella suited up for what promises to be a very muddy soccer game with muddy laundry to do afterward, make dinner, help Elias with his homework, then get the house ready for small group, and then afterward try to make bedtime go at the speed of light, so that the kids can get a decent amount of sleep to be prepared for school early tomorrow morning, I seriously want to get away.  It isn't that any of these things are bad or even things that I don't want to do.  In fact, I love it all, but I just want a break.
I know I am being a big downer today.  Tomorrow is another day, right?  I need to be counting my blessings instead of boo-hooing!  So I am thankful that I have a husband who loves me dearly, children who are healthy and active, a warm and safe home, food on my table, clean water to drink and bath, friends who love me, and a healthy body and mind.  I actually do feel better and I know that I could continue counting...Now, I am off to enjoy my ordinary day (which has gotten better in the last 5 minutes already because I just learned they canceled Bella's game).

Count your Blessings

1. When upon life’s billows you are tempest-tossed,
   When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
   Count your many blessings, name them one by one,
   And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.
   
   • Count your blessings, name them one by one,
     Count your blessings, see what God hath done!
     Count your blessings, name them one by one,
     *Count your many blessings, see what God hath done.
     [*And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.]
2. Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
   Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?
   Count your many blessings, every doubt will fly,
   And you will keep singing as the days go by.
3. When you look at others with their lands and gold,
   Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold;
   Count your many blessings—wealth can never buy
   Your reward in heaven, nor your home on high.
4. So, amid the conflict whether great or small,
   Do not be discouraged, God is over all;
   Count your many blessings, angels will attend,
   Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end.